“As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts. What doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. But what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself”.
Time is a funny thing. Some times we wish we had just a little more of it… Another minute of sleep when our alarms go off, one more day on the weekend, just a few more minutes to spend with the people we’ve lost. But more predominately we are wasting time… Waiting for our 8 hours of work to be over, for the next big event to happen that we’ve been looking forward to, for the 45 minute commute we have to disappear. For life to just make sense. They (whoever they are) say “time heals all”, but is that really true??
You know what else is a funny thing… Heartbreak (not literally.. it literally sucks). It has a way of making you reevaluate time. Look back on how you’ve spent the last five (or however many) years of your life. To remember that one time you may have overreacted or said the wrong words. To think where it could have all gone wrong. To wish that you could just reverse time. But reversal is impossible, and heart break has a way of making time stand still. When you are heart broken the days, even hours, move slower. You are waiting for “time to heal”, for that moment of clarity when everything just feels alright again. But how much time in this life that is already way too short are you supposed to give?
I very recently have gone through a break up and I’ve decided that I’m not going to sit around and “let time heal” my wounds. This heartbreak I feel everyday is one that I need to solve for myself. Every morning I wake up, before I put on my make up ;), I tell myself that today will be the day that I will be a better version of myself, today will be the day that I become a better person than I was yesterday. Today I will not let my thoughts and grief consume me. I will not wish that my time would go by faster and my day would be over already. I will enjoy and learn from each step I take, good or bad. I will choose to heal today, instead of wallow in the past and what could have been. Today will be a good day, today I will live in the now.
Time does not need to heal all because we all have the power to heal ourselves. We possess the power to solve our own problems, to look into our souls and decide we’ve had enough of the feelings we are feeling. It is not an easy task, but it is also not impossible. We must live with the cards we are dealt and even if that hand is shitty, its our shitty hand. Never let something or someone else take your time away from you. We all have the power to acknowledge that we deserve to smile, to be curious about the future and most important, to forget about time and absolutely and completely live in the moment.